I had a vision of Buddha coming and telling me - "I wish there were two of me. One to work and spend time with family and
one to do what I want. And then, believe me, I would have not left
Kapilvastu."
Well, Buddha did not come in my dream and he did
not say any such thing. But I can imagine how he would have been torn between
two contradictory needs. More he got the companionship, more
was the desire to leave everything and do what he wanted to do and not
what his family wanted him to do.
It is quite interesting how "work-family" and "what-I-want-to-do" become mutually exclusive.
It is also interesting, if you notice, how conveniently work and family have been
grouped together. And how "to do what I want" has been left completely
undefined.
But really, what do I want to do when I am not with the
family and not at work? What do you want to do? Apart from
once-in-a-year-ha-ha-hee-hee with college friends, occasional gossips
with colleagues during after-work-social-drinking, I want to be left
alone to do whatever I want. And, that would be..... I wish I knew.
Is it only me or there are others (other men) who think like me? Do women also have these contradictory demands from life? Or it is just "Men will be Men" thing.
